My mind goes solo!

“The most sought after topic in her life . . . the much talked about affair in her life . . . the never ending discussion in her life . . . What is it that attracted her immensely to this somewhat petty issue of life? There seemed to be no end to it and it kept stretching on endlessly like an elastic band with remarkable stretch ability. She struggled to oust it from her memory but it mercilessly kept lingering on and pestered her to no end. . . Don’t Wonder. . . It’s a big blunder even lending a thought to it but she can hardly help herself these days”.

Welcome to my life, where unending thinking is a pleasure and useless thinking a luxury. When I last sat near my windowsill with a soulful song flowing somewhere in the background, it brought back some bittersweet memories of the past (Duh! Memories are always of the past . . . Isn’t it? ) The smile in his eyes, the sweet flutter inside, the giddiness in my stomach and his passing by. Everything came back to me in an instant followed by some more excruciating feelings. The endless shedding of tears, the twisting and tumbling in the bed, the sleepless nights and those dreadful expressions of mine. Shuddering slightly I tried hard to erase them forever from my memory but certain love songs simply remind you every teeny-weeny bit of life. They tear you apart from inside, entice you slowly and nourish your romantic glands lovingly.

What is it? I still wonder. . .